Hello all! As you may know, I live in Berkeley and work in retail. People in this city can be pretty hostile and negative towards each other. Because of my surroundings, I will be the first to admit that I have become a bit jaded. I don't like feeling cynical or angry all the time so I've decided to make a change. I've made a goal to do one good deed a week (a day seemed too much of a challenge, maybe someday.)
So, last week, after I went out to lunch, I gave my leftover chicken wings to a homeless person. (Notice I didn't say "bum." That's growth.) Then, just today, I paid too much for my parking meter and gave the ticket with the remaining value to someone who was just about to pay for only 15 minutes of parking.
For me, though, with good deeds comes guilt. Does this happen to anyone else? What's that about? After I gave the chicken wings to the homeless guy, I was feeling pretty good until I wondered "Can he go anywhere to get water?" It was hot that day and those wings were salty. With the guy today, he was putting his credit card into the machine right when I jumped out of my car yelling "Don't do it!" Did he remember to cancel that transaction or was he still charged because I distracted him?
What's wrong with me?! Why can't I do something nice without worrying something else bad might happen? God, I'm so messed up! -Bub
I think that's so awesome that you're doing that! And I don't think you should worry about what happens past your good deed. I'm sure regardless, people will still remember the good deed and hopefully "pay it forward"! Good luck! I look forward to hearing about more of your good deeds! :D
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